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11 April 2009 @ 09:10 pm
Hurt/Comfort-Meme  
A while ago, I promised you a comment-fic-meme as soon as we reached 100 members. And here it is!

Teh Rulez
01. Comment to this post with your prompt and desired pairing(s). Be as specific or unspecific as you like.
For example: "Sam, Dean (gen): hypothermia" or "Jared/Jensen: Jared gets hurt on set, Rating: at least R" or "Dean/Castiel: Castiel comforts Dean after a nightmare"
If you are unsure about a certain pairing or prompt, please go to our profile and read the general rules or ask in our FAQs
02. Post as many prompts as you like - but one prompt per comment only, please!
03. If you find a prompt that strikes your fancy, jump in and write some comment fic for the prompt poster
04. More than one comment fic response to a prompt is absolutely acceptable. (There is no such thing as too much hurt/comfort!)
05. Tell your friends to tell their friends to come and join the fun, add a prompt, write a fic and leave some love for the authors! ^___^
06. Play nice - no flames, no bashing is allowed here! If I see a rude comment to a prompt or a fic repsonse, I'll delete it without further warning.
07. Please no spam-comments and please don't ask questions about the meme here - use the FAQs-post. =)

And most important of all: Have lots of fun - make them bleed, make them cry, make them argue and most of all: let them hug and cuddle to make it all better! ;)


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Masterlist of fics:
lissa_ann : [Dean, Sam (gen): Teen!Sam gets roofied, big brother Dean to the rescue]
shadowofcastiel : [Dean/Castiel (slash, PG-13): Castiel hugs an agitated, distressed Dean]
9_of_clubs : [Dean/Castiel. Castiel gets punished for bending the rules to help Dean]
sinnerforhire : [Sam, Dean: Chickenpox]
authoressnebula : [Sam, Dean (gen), Post 4.18, Sam falls apart and tries to kill himself because of the events of the last few months]
tahirire : [Sam, Dean (gen): Teen!Sam spends some time at a camp while Dean and John are on a hunting trip. One night, exhausted!hurt!Dean sneaks into the camp to check on his little brother]
indigominstrels :  [JDM/Jensen/Jared: Jensen gets a very bad news from his family and won't eat for days. Jared and JDM get worried and don't want Jensen to be sick on top of it all]
persuna : [Gen. Sam gets hurt trying to save one of the seals. Protective!Dean and protective!Castiel]
blualbino : [Dean/Fallen!Castiel: Castiel gets his first dose of human illness and Dean has to take care of him]
maychorian : [Dean, Castiel (gen) - Little!Dean gets hurt somehow and his "guardian angel" Castiel comforts him]
blualbino [Sam, Dean (gen): After 4.18 TMATEOTS Dean reads Chuck's Mystery Spot book and finally gets the full story]
tahirire : [Sam, Pamela: AU of 4.01 or other S4 episode. Pamela can see Sam's strife and comforts Sam.]
charlie_d_blue : [Gen: A demon has a grudge against Castiel (maybe for his role in getting Dean saved, or in killing Alistair). Sam and Dean arrive in time to save their angel, but there's repair & comfort needed, of course]
sinnerforhire : [Dean, Sam (gen) - Dean gets hurt (breaks leg) and Sam has to carry him, much to Dean's dismay]
Anonymous
: [Sam, Dean (gen): Post BUaBS. Sam wakes up, middle of the road, middle of the night, middle of nowhere. Dean's run the tank bone dry]
atimi : [Jared/Jensen: Jensen + sunstroke + worried!Jared]
schwarze_elster : [Sam, Dean (gen): Dean falls down a hole in a cemetery. Sammy helps his big brother]
fhionnuiscetine :   [Sam (gen): what happened to Sam while Dean was in hell]
violet_eyes : [J2: Somehow the boys end up in the middle of a bank robbery and being taken hostage. Jared gets shot. Lots of angst ensues]
autumn_lilacs : [Bobby, Dean, gen. In early Season 2, the Impala is still in terrible shape. The car, she is hurt. The car, she needs comfort. Dean and Bobby provide]
rei17 :   [Dean, Sam (gen) - Dean gets hurt (breaks leg?) and Sam has to carry him, much to Dean's dismay]
parislove27 : [Sam, Dean (gen) - Dean passes out of the wheel of the Impala]
i_speak_tongue : [Dean, Sam (Gen): Dean saves a cat from a flooded storm water drain. Gets cold, wet and scratched up for his troubles; Sam tries not to laugh whilst patching him up]
hope_calaris : [Sam, Dean (gen): One of the guys has a health scare, the other worries and comforts]
ginzai :  [Sam, Dean, Bobby (gen): Bobby is severely injured helping the boys, the boys have to figure out how to save him for once. Bonus points for extremely protective boys]
blualbino :  [J2 or Sam, Dean: During workout/sports/training/messing around one of the boys accidentally hurts the other.]
blueeyedliz : [Jared/Jensen: Jared gets attacked by a stranger and Jensen finds him afterwards]
fhionnuiscetine : [Sam experiences extreme emotional distress after discovering that their fangirls think he's a necropheliac. Dean confronts this problem with his Righteous Brotherly Rage(TM)]
tahirire : [Sam, Dean (gen) - Sam comforts Dean for a change, making sure he knows he's worth it]
tripoli : [Sam (gen): what happened to Sam while Dean was in hell]
ginzai : [Dean, John (gen): Stanford-era, Sam is gone and Dean sleeps too little and eats too little and John doesn't realize how much he suffers until Dean gets sick/hurt]
tahirire : [Sam, Dean (gen): Unhinged, tied up Sam with a side order of badass protective Dean please]
i_speak_tongue : [Sam, Dean, John (Gen): Dean stops eating for days on end for reasons unknown and Sam has to get his big bro to eat again]
tir_synni :  [J2: Jensen gets bitten by a (poisonous) snake, location unimportant. Jared to the rescue!]
maychorian : [Wee!Dean, John, Mary: Dean vs Wasps]
blualbino : [Dean/Fallen!Castiel: Castiel gets his first dose of human illness and Dean has to take care of him]
blue_icy_rose : [Sam and Dean (Gen) - Season 4. The boys wind up in trouble on a case (doesn't matter how). Sam saves Dean at the cost of his own chance to get away, and winds up in danger. Dean comes to the rescue]
tahirire : [Sam, Dean (gen): Sam and Dean get accidentally trapped somewhere (on set or during a hunt) and one of the guys freaks out and gets a panic attack]
hope_calaris : [Sam (gen): what happened to Sam while Dean was in hell]
a_starfish : [Sam and Dean or Sam/Dean, immediately pre-Stanford. Dean can't really take this. He's falling apart thinking about what's about to happen to his family. Enter Sam]
sinnerforhire : [Sam, Dean, Jess: Sam as a modern Cassandra--sane or insane, real or imagined.]
maychorian : [Stanford era Dean and Bobby, gen. Dean gets injured (I ain't particular on this) and Bobby's the one who has to patch him up]
fhionnuiscetine : [S1, please, with Sam cleaning Dean up and badgering him about the scars received while he was at Stanford?]
blualbino : [Sam and Dean or Sam/Dean. Sam's first attempt at losing his virginity (to either gender) goes drastically wrong. Dean makes it better]
woodsbaile_02 : [Jared/Jensen: Jensen + sunstroke + worried!Jared] [Part 2], [Part 3], [Part 4]
blueeyedliz : [J2: Jared suffers from a chronic illness (asthma, diabetes ... ). Worried!Jensen ensues]
tahirire : [Sam, Dean(gen): Set sometime in season four. Sam has a fever and Dean is taking care of him. Sam also tells his brother he thinks Dean doesn't love him anymore, and Dean convinces him otherwise]
tir_synni : [Kripke, Jensen (gen): sick!Jensen and worried!Kripke, who gives top priority to his star's well-being.]
tir_synni : [Dean, John(gen): Both Dean and his father are injured on a hunt, and Dean tends to the other first and neglects his own wounds, causing complications later]
roque_clasique : [Sam, Dean - Sam gets a bad haircut. Dean to the rescue. Sam only ever lets Dean cut his hair from then on]
roque_clasique : [Sam, Dean (gen): Post BUaBS. Sam wakes up, middle of the road, middle of the night, middle of nowhere. Dean's run the tank bone dry]
roque_clasique : [John,Dean,Sam(Gen):Dean hurts his shoulder]
Anonymous: [Sam, Dean(gen): A curse stops Sam from sleeping, ever.]
embroiderama : [Sam/Jess: Sam gets hurt at Stanford for some reason when he's with his friends, far from a doctor, and he stitches himself up/sets his own bones, and his friends are all WOAH SAM HOW'D YOU GET SO BADASS and he's all *SHRUG*]
roque_clasique :  [Dean, Sam (gen or wincest): Set in S2, Sam passes out during a vision]
rosestoo : [Sam and Dean (Gen). A curse stops Sam from sleeping, ever]
maychorian : [Sam, Dean (Gen) Dean goes missing during a hunt, Sam find him days later dazed and confused]
roque_clasique : [Jensen, Jared (Gen) : Jensen takes Jared's dogs for a walk, and Harley/Sadie gets attacked by another dog. Jensen gets bitten pulling them apart. Jared yells at him for doing something so stupid, but is also super grateful to him for saving his dog]
sexynarwhal : [Dean, Sam (gen): Dean is de-aged and for some reason they can't change him back for awhile. Meanwhile a nasty gets wind of Dean's vulnerability, and he is kidnapped and moderately mistreated + PTSD!Dean]
i_speak_tongue : [Sam, Dean (gen): Dean gets sick during a hunt but keeps insisting he is fine. Only he is ... not]
roque_clasique : [Dean, Sam (gen): Dean on strong painkillers gets loopy and clingy, telling the nurses how much he loves his brother and not wanting Sammy to ever leave him, stuff like that - and yes, Sam is totally allowed to make fun of him afterwards]
cream_fudge : [Dean, Sam, gen, S1-4: Dean hurts his hands or his arms and can't use them and Sam has to feed him and shave him and tuck him in and tie his sneakers and button up his little flannel shirts]
sinnerforhire : [Dean, Sam, John (gen): Dean is hiding that a lingering cold has turned into pneumonia to go on a hunt in the middle of a howling storm]
tcs1121 : [Dean can sense the tension in the months before Sam leaves for Stanford, and he starts smoking heavily. Heh. Sam tries to get him to quit]
maychorian : [Teen!chesters -- Dean is badly injured on a hunt (broken leg/s a huge bonus) but still has to go to high school 'cause he's a senior and needs to graduate, and Sam keeps an eye out for him...]
uhzoomzip : [Jensen/jared - Jensen has appendicitis and collapses in the middle of a scene]
july_july_july : [Dean, John (gen): Teen!Dean is allowed to accompany John and another hunter on a hunt. The hunter keeps putting Dean down. In the end he is careless and does something stupid, so Dean gets hurt himself while protecting him. Featuring angry!scary!badass!John who rips the hunter a new one for putting his sons life in danger]
rei17 :  [Sam, Dean (gen): Narcoleptic!Dean], [Part 2+3]
momentine : [Teen!Dean drops acid (accidentally or on purpose) and has a bad trip, and Sammy has to talk him down off the roof of their house/apartment...]
hope_calaris : [J2: First time is a disaster (every possible accident is fine but nothing remotely non-con or dub-con, please!)]
deluweil : [J2: Jared realizes something's wrong with Jensen when Harley and Sadie wake him up in the middle of the night ...]
Maxine: [J2- in the middle of a scene jensen is stabbed in the stomach with a real knife instead of a prop]             
a_starfish : [Erratically driving the impala crazy/concussed Sam, with pursuing in another car Dean]
roque_clasique : [Teen!Dean drops acid (accidentally or on purpose) and has a bad trip, and Sammy has to talk him down off the roof of their house/apartment...]
iniq : [Stanford era Dean and Bobby, gen. Dean gets injured (I ain't particular on this) and Bobby's the one who has to patch him up], [Part 2 (slash!) ]
sinnerforhire : [Sam, Dean (gen) - Dean has a seizure]
july_july_july : [Sam/Jess. Sam gets homesick at Stanford. He can't tell Jess any details, but he's hurt and she's comforting]
ariadnes_string : [J2: Jared is off doing promo work for Friday the 13th while Jensen stays behind to film. Extra long days and no Jared means no sleep for Jensen and he gets sick]
Anonymous: [Sam, Dean (Gen or Wincest) - S4. Sam starts to sleep way more than usual. Cue worried Dean]
audleyssecret : [J2: Jensen has a very strong headache while filming a scene of Supernatural. He almost faints so the Director tells him to go take a nap in his trailer. Jared takes care of him]
july_july_july : [Dean, Sam, John (gen): Dean is hiding that a lingering cold has turned into pneumonia to go on a hunt (possibly following Sam and/or John without them knowing?) in the middle of a howling storm]
bellatemple : [Narcoleptic!Dean], [Part 2], [Part 3], [Part 4]
lissa_ann :   [Sam, Dean (gen): Post 4.18, Sam falls apart and tries to kill himself because of the events of the last few months. He doesn't want to go darkside, and believes he will because of Dean's comment about it], [Part 2], [Part 3]
sinnerforhire : [J2: Jensen's in a car accident. Jared tries to make him feel better]
saberivojo : [Sam, Dean (gen): Teen!Sam spends some time at a camp while Dean and John are on a hunting trip. One night, exhausted!hungry!(maybe even hurt)Dean sneaks into the camp to check on his little brother], [Part 2], [Part 3]
july_july_july : [Dean, Sam, Castiel; PTSD!Castiel or traumatized!Castiel, maybe as a result of torture, rape, I dunno. Taken in and cared for]
saralikeme : [RPS - Jared or Jensen gets a bad stomach bug and tries to keep it a secret so shooting doesn't get delayed]
tir_synni : [Dean, Sam, John: AU after first season's car crash. The YED is dead, John didn't make the deal. But after Dean wakes up from the coma he's not the same as before (might be PTSD, physical or mental disabilities or he's in need of constant treatmeant due to some injuries, stuff like that). I'd love to read something where Sam, Dean and John settle down somewhere and try to find a way back into a normal life]
fhionnuiscetine : [Sam, Dean (gen): Set sometime in season four. Sam has a fever and Dean is taking care of him. Sam also tells his brother he thinks Dean doesn't love him anymore, and Dean convinces him otherwise]
dodger_winslow : [Bobby and John, gen. John is injured on a hunt and Bobby knows that he has to get him back to his boys]
fhionnuiscetine : [Sam, Dean, Jess (gen, het): AU (obviously), Jess gets hit on rather aggressively. Protective!Sam&Dean, please]
riverbella : [Dean, Sam, John (gen): Dean loses an eye and has to re-learn hunting stuff with his new, altered depth perception]
embroiderama : [John, Dean, Sam (gen): John gets a call from school, that one of his boys got hurt/passed out during class ...], [Part 2], [Part 3], [Part 4]
maychorian : [Dean, John (gen): Teen!Dean (16-18-ish) is allowed to accompany John and another hunter on a hunt. The hunter keeps putting Dean down. In the end the other dude is careless and does something stupid, so Dean gets hurt himself while protecting him. I really want angry!scary!badass!John who rips the hunter a new one for putting his sons life in danger]
i_speak_tongue : [Dean, Sam, gen, S1-4: Dean hurts his hands or his arms and can't use them and Sam has to feed him and shave him and tuck him in and tie his sneakers and button up his little flannel shirts], [Part 2]. [Part 3]. [Part 4a]. [Part 4b]
Maxine: [Dean is de-aged (physically) but even though his mind is still his, his body is a kid’s and he needs a nap. Sam attempts to convince him of this; Dean is NOT impressed. But in the end he falls asleep on Sam's shoulder anyway]
sinnerforhire : [J2: Feverish Jensen, Nightmare Jensen, Jared comforts him]
ariadnes_string : [Dean, Sam, Castiel (gen): Dean has a fever or a concussion and thinks he's back in hell. Sam and Castiel have to look after him and try and talk him through it]
deluweil : [J2: Jensen and Jared are in a bar to see Chris and Steve on stage, when a fight starts not very far from Jensen and he gets caught in it and gets hurt]
audleyssecret : [J2: Jensen and Jared are in a bar to see Chris and Steve on stage, when a fight starts not very far from Jensen and he gets caught in it and gets hurt]
tir_synni : [Dean, John (gen): Dean loses an eye and has to re-learn hunting stuff with his new, altered depth perception], [Part 2], [Part 3]
Maxine:  [J2:Jensen has a punctured or collapsed lung]
iniq : [J2: Asthmatic!Jensen]
rosestoo : [Sam, Dean (Gen): If your sister or your brother were stumbling on their last mile ~ in a self-inflicted exile]
tripoverhercats : [Dean, Bobby (gen): Pre series : Dean is hunting solo. Sam is at school, not returning his calls, Dad has gone off the grid as well. A big bad gets Dean in the forest, and he knows he is dying -- it's a dangerous gig, but he calls Bobby because he doesn't want to check out alone]
tir_synni : [J2 : Jensen has some kind of ailment that ends up being exacerbated by plane travel. Bring on the in-air hurt/comfort]
woodsbaile_02 : [J2: ared realizes something's wrong with Jensen when Harley and Sadie wake him up in the middle of the night ...], [Part 2], [Part 3], [Part 4]
sg2009: [Dean, Sam (gen): Dean is de-aged and for some reason they can't change him back for awhile. Meanwhile a nasty gets wind of Dean's vulnerability, and he is kidnapped and moderately mistreated, PTSD!Dean]
theditor : [J2: Jensen has an allergic reaction to something on set & goes into anaphylactic shock & almost dies in Jared's arms]
faye_dartmouth : [Sam, John, Pastor Jim (gen): Ten-year-old Sammy wakes up in the backseat of the Impala to find the car in the ditch; John trapped, bloody and out-of-his-head-confused in the front seat; and the passenger door hanging open with Dean nowhere to be found]
no_apologies_86 : [Sam, Dean (gen): After 4.18 TMATEOTS Dean reads Chuck's Mystery Spot book and finally gets the full story. Because it's never too late for surprise!Mystery Spot codas], [Part 2]
tir_synni : [Sam, Dean (gen) : Weechesters. A training session ends badly when Sam gets hurt trying to meet John's expectations]
geminigrl11 : [Dean, Sam, Castiel (gen): Apocalypse/War timeframe. Dean and Sam have been separated (by choice, Angelic intervention, what-have-you) for weeks when Dean, seemingly randomly, finds Sam in an abandoned church, bloody and half-insane from trauma]
rei17 : [Sam, Dean (gen): girl!Dean, Sam Sam's sister gets hurt and it's the first time he realizes just how fragile his sister really is]
Anonymous: [Sam, Dean (gen):Weechesters - Sam is poisoned by a bite he receives from a supernatural creature during a hunt. Dean to the rescue]    
katriel1987 : [Sam, Dean (gen): Exhausted-to-the-point-of collapse Dean]
uhzoomzip : [Dean, Sam, post 4.16: Dean’s in the hospital and not getting better as fast as he should be due to medical complications/a way overdue emotional breakdown/whatever, and Sam is kind of scarily protective of him and intimidates all the staff/pretty angels]
roque_clasique : [Dean, John, (gen): Dean in traction. Multiple broken bones. Surgery. Weird scary external fixators]
mad_server : [Sam, Dean (gen): Dean is sick and wears one of Sam's hoodies]
a_starfish : [Sam, Bobby, Dean (gen): Sam's S4 powers make him ill]
selene_13 : [Sam, Dean (gen): Sam and Dean are in a car accident and Dean is more worried about the damage to the car than the damage to himself, even though he's actually quite badly hurt]
kiscinca : [Sam, Dean (gen): S4, dealing with Sam's drinking whilst Dean was gone], [Part 2], [Part 3], [Part 4]
Maxine:  [Dean, Sam, Bobby (gen): I need a story where Dean has been de-aged (physically &mentally).Sam takes him to Bobby's & they both look after the little guy until they can get big Dean back]
iniq : [J2: For some reason, Jared thinks Jensen did something and is mad at him/ yells at him. Turns out, Jensen didn't do anything, and is pretty hurt Jared could think he'd do something like that . ]
Anonymous: [Sam, Dean, (Gen): S4, Dean has an especially effed up relationship with pain now, Sam finds out/realises]
hope_calaris : [J2: Jensen wet and in Jared's clothes]
tir_synni : [Sam, Dean (gen):  Dean falls in a lake in the middle of winter. Hypothermic!Dean]
tir_synni : [Sam,  Dean (gen)  : Dean gets a pretty nasty scar that cuts across his lips (but it's actually extremely hot and badass he just doesn't realize it) and he's really self-conscious about laughing or smiling or anything to do with his mouth, maybe stops talking or something. Sam comforts him]
saralikeme : [John, Sam (gen): Dean is gone for a few days for some reason and when Sam falls sick, it falls to John to do the things that Dean usually does for his little brother]
woodsbaile_02 : [Chris, Jensen (gen): Jensen gets hit on rather aggressively by a stranger in a bar]
sg2009:  [Sam, Dean (gen): Dean has sneeze syncope (faints for a short time after sneezing)]
mad_server : [Sam, Dean (gen): Due to his "rehymenated" body not coming with all the resistance to things his old body had built up, Dean keeps getting sick]
july_july_july : [Sam, Dean (gen): Dean shows up at Stanford Sam's freshman year with a through-and-through bullet wound in his leg (or somewhere else, if you must), and Sam patches him up as his roommate quietly freaks out]
a_starfish : [Sam, Dean (gen): Dean gets a pretty nasty scar that cuts across his lips (but it's actually extremely hot and badass he just doesn't realize it) and he's really self-conscious about laughing or smiling or anything to do with his mouth, maybe stops talking or something. Sam comforts him]
legoline : [Sam, Dean gen): Dean with a limp]
tir_synni : [Sam, dean (gen): Dean has broken up with his boyfriend and is moping - but doesn't dare tell Sam the real reason in case they freak]
kiscinca : [Sam, Dean (gen): Set after "Metamorphosis". Sam has his third cold in two months, and Dean takes care of him]
innocentculprit : [Sam, Dean (gen): Dean has a concussion and a fever and is confused and headachy and tired and sad and sleepy]
Anonymous: [Sam, Dean (AU): Sam is a doctor now,one night Dean shows up at his hospital...] inspired by this graphic (@animotus )
iniq : [Sam, Dean (AU): Sam is a doctor now, one night Dean shows up at the hospital ....] inspired by this graphic (@animotus )
iniq : [J2: Jensen limps and Jared worries]
twasadark : [Sam, Dean (gen): Set sometime in season four. Sam has a fever and Dean is taking care of him]
sinnerforhire : [J2 + Misha: Misha feels like a bit of an outsider when he joins the SPN cast, because Jared and Jensen are so close. He gets hurt on set somehow and finally gets accepted as 'one of the boys']
sinnerforhire : [Jared, Jensen, Misha (RPF) - The three of them are hanging out in the free time, someone starts having heart trouble]
sinnerforhire [J2: One of the boys get sick with the flu and the other takes care of him]
deadmandarcie : [Dean, Castiel (gen) - Little!Dean gets hurt somehow and his "guardian angel" Castiel comforts him.], [Part 2], [Part 3]
weesta : [Jensen, Misha (gen): Jensen and Misha are running lines together when Misha collapses. Worried!Jensen ensues]
deadmandarcie : [Sam and Dean (Gen). A curse stops Sam from sleeping, ever.]
tir_synni : [Sam, Dean (wincesty): Hurt of your choice, but Dean is unconscious or out of it in some way so that Sam has to undress him. Dean is wearing girl panties.]
sinnerforhire : [J2: After some long and exhausting shoots, (bruised/hurty!)Jensen falls asleep on the couch while they're watching a movie together - with an ice pack on his shoulder]
i_speak_tongue : [Sam, Dean (gen): Outsider POV from someone in Dean's junior year ceramics class -- Dean busts one of his arms/shoulder and can't spin the clay on the wheel, so he's stuck making coil pots one-handed. Sam's in the woodworking class down the hall and sometimes he stops by to mock his brother.]



 
 
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roque_clasiqueroque_clasique on April 15th, 2009 11:46 pm (UTC)
Dean, Sam, gen, S1-4: Dean hurts his hands or his arms and can't use them and Sam has to feed him and shave him and tuck him in and tie his sneakers and button up his little flannel shirts!
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roque_clasiqueroque_clasique on April 15th, 2009 11:52 pm (UTC)
hee! I wanna pet and cuddle him. are you gonna write this? *bounces*
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(no subject) - rei17 on April 16th, 2009 07:11 am (UTC) (Expand)
i_speak_tongue: work sucksi_speak_tongue on April 16th, 2009 06:20 am (UTC)
I've always wanted to write/read something along these lines. I'll try my hand at it tomorrow....
Live like you mean it and love til you feel it: Dean (porny thoughts)rei17 on April 16th, 2009 07:04 am (UTC)
Oh yes please! *__* I'd love to read that!
(no subject) - roque_clasique on April 16th, 2009 08:38 am (UTC) (Expand)
animotusanimotus on April 16th, 2009 01:28 pm (UTC)
Ohhhh please!!!!Sam shaving Dean?I might explode!Seriously!
harriganharrigan on April 17th, 2009 12:02 am (UTC)
I wanted to write you something, but I can't think about this prompt without wallowing in happy memories of a fic already written earlier this year by someone else. It totally meets your prompt, and I thoroughly enjoyed it and I think you would too. Check out In Good Hands by scullspeare.
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i_speak_tongue: amuleti_speak_tongue on April 20th, 2009 11:35 pm (UTC)
learning to feel nothing
(author's note: hello, non linear time line! The first section, and every second section after that are in chronological order. But each section in italics takes one step backwards in time starting from the first section. Got that?)
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>



--learning to feel nothing---


No one in the history of people who got out of cars has ever done it this slowly. This is a new world record. Sam should call fucking Guinness as soon as they get inside.

“Did we forget anything?” he asks, poking around in a crumpled paper bag. And for a second Dean regrets what he did, not because of the pain, but because it’s given Sam an easy way out. It’s more important to talk about antiseptic and painkillers than SAT scores and Ivy League school application forms.

“No, we didn’t. Can we please just go inside Sam? I’m fucking tired.”

Georgia’s brutal July sun beats down through the windows in little darts, finding it’s way around the branches of the giant hickory trees that line the street, and Dean can feel the heat build up on a glowing patch on his right forearm, just at the edge of his cast.

“Yeah. Yeah. Okay,” Sam says, flustered. He reaches into the back for his backpack, climbs out of the driver’s side leaving a thin film of sweat behind where his back was pressed against the seat.

Dean stares at the little particles of dust that float in the sunbeam that hits the leather where Sam used to be, and waits for the door to open on his side.

>>>>>>>>>>>>

He doesn’t feel anything anymore. Not the fear or the anger or frustration. Not even the pain in his busted hands.

He feels the hard mattress of the ER bed and the stickiness of the blood that’s stained straight through the knees of his jeans. And he feels the lingering pinch of the needles they injected into his wrists. But he doesn’t feel any of the things the doctor says he has, like three fractured metacarpals in his right hand or a fractured thumb and index finger on his left. Doesn’t feel those things like he used to.

And that’s just fine. He doesn’t want to feel any of it.


>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

He lies in Dad’s bed for most of the afternoon, exhausted from the crying kids and junkies in the ER, the stitches and x-rays and all the questions from the nurse about who was on the other side of those herculean punches, and if they needed a doctor even more than he did.

Dad’s bed smells like WD-40 and Old Spice, and Dean breathes it in and tries to follow the sound of the fan in the high window on the other side of the room—thanks god one more time for basement apartments in summertime.

His arms are propped up next to him on little towers Sam’s made of school books and pillows, and it’s supposed to keep the swelling down. But it doesn’t make his hands feel any less like two throbbing slabs of gristly steak on a grill. Whatever they jabbed him with at the hospital is wearing off.

Sam pokes his head in the door, tells him there’s pizza, and even though Dean doesn’t have much of an appetite, he gets up anyway, careful not to lift his arms too quickly.

He takes a seat across the little Formica table from his brother, and after that isn’t really sure what to do. There’s a plate in front of him with a slice of Hawaiian pizza on it that he just blinks at, his plastered hands framing the plate on either side like a cruel joke.

He could manage with one hand. But a thumb and three fingers on different hands? It just doesn’t cut it. As soon as he even thinks about fumbling awkwardly with the plate or trying desperately to maneuver the greasy slice of pie into his mouth, the humiliating visual it conjures is enough that he doesn’t even bother trying.

After all, there’s such a thing as dignity.

“Fuck it. I’m not even hungry,” he growls, gets up and pushes the plate towards the middle of the table with the back of the cast on his right arm. The one that covers all his fingers but his thumb, and bends in a stupid “c” shape.

“Dean, wait!” Sam calls after him, but Dean’s already slamming the door to Dad’s room shut with his foot.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>


tbc...
roque_clasiqueroque_clasique on April 20th, 2009 11:43 pm (UTC)
Re: learning to feel nothing
HELLO NON-LINEAR TIME!
I love this so much so far. So, so much.
A great time to set this in, too, when Dean is realizing that he's going to have to learn to live without Sam, but he NEEDS him, 'cause both his arms are broken!!! and 'cause, the love.
can't wait for more.
Re: learning to feel nothing - i_speak_tongue on April 21st, 2009 01:06 am (UTC) (Expand)
i_speak_tongue: hotwirei_speak_tongue on April 21st, 2009 12:50 am (UTC)
learning to feel nothing (part 2)
He leans on the trunk of the impala, tries to spit out the acidic sting that coats his mouth, watches a stray dog run through the peach orchard on the side of the highway.

Fuck. This is what he wanted right? Wanted it to hurt so bad he’d forget how much other stuff hurt?

Sam comes over, helps him back into the car and pours some water down his throat, and it’s hot from sitting in the car since yesterday. Dean swallows it and lets some slide down the side of his face.

Sam starts the engine and they pull back onto the highway heading for the hospital in Macon. Dean swipes his cheeks dry on the shoulders of his t-shirt, and salt water and spring water darken its gray fibers.

The sickly sweet smell of rotting fruit makes it hard not to puke again. But he won’t. He’s got nothing left inside.


>>>>>>>>>>>>


It’s half past midnight by the old alarm clock with the flipping numbers next to Dad’s bed. Dean really can’t sleep. First of all there’s the fact that he’s about two hours overdue for that Codeine they picked up on the way home. Second of all, he’s insanely hungry.

So he crawls out of bed for the second time, finds that he’s confronted by a closed door. Yeah. The one he slammed closed. Which was a hell of a lot easier than turning the knob to open it. That takes him about a minute too long.

Some things are harder: twisting things and holding things. Some things are easier: pushing things and pulling things.

The faucet on the kitchen sink gives him the false impression that he’s completely self-sufficient for the second time since he’s been home, as he pushes the lever up and holds his mouth open under the rush of cold water. He tries not to think about how bad he’s going to have to piss soon.

Dean shuts off the water and peers into the pizza box on the counter. It’s empty. Sam probably finished it off hours ago.

He pulls open the fridge with his thumb and swallows the jolt of pain it sends like an electric shock all the way up to his neck. He sways a little on his feet, leans a stiff elbow on the top of the open fridge door and closes his eyes. It’s just low blood-sugar or something. He just has to eat and he’ll be fine. He can handle the pain.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>


“Holy shit, Dean. What did you do?”

That’s a funny question for Sam to ask. Because it seems pretty fucking clear. He’s sitting on the floor, starring at what he’s pretty sure are pieces of drywall and timber lodged in the skin of his bleeding hands, and half the wall he’s leaning on is demolished. Someone needs to learn how to put two and two together.

He wants to laugh, but it comes out like a strangled sob. It echoes through the empty, half-renovated apartment as if the voice belongs to some invisible intruder.

Sam kneels down next to him, reaches out to touch his hands where they hang limp over his bent knees. Blood drips down Dean’s wrists and stains his jeans, the dusty hardwood floor.

“Don’t touch me,” he growls, Sam’s fingers a moment away from grazing his thumb.

“Christ,” Sam breaths, pulling his hand back to worry it over his mouth instead. “Are they… I mean did you- did you break anything?” His gaze travels back over Dean’s head, takes in the extensive damage to the wall they just put up the day before. They’ll pretty much have to tear it down and start again.

“Christ,” Sam says again.

Dean thinks about Sam’s question. Tries to pinpoint the pain through the throbbing burning numbness. Except for the fact that he’s looking right at them, he can’t even tell that he has hands anymore.

“I don’t. I can’t.” The room gets darker around the edges and then Sam has his big paws all over Dean’s face, clamped around his jaw.

“Dean. We need to go to the hospital.”

He wants to scream at his stupid selfish brat of a little brother. Wants to rip his fucking head off and ask him why he thinks he’s so goddamn special.

He doesn’t though. Instead, he lets Sam lead him out to the Impala. Lets him wrap his hands in the strips of cheap white bed sheets they keep in the trunk. Lets him lay a reassuring hand on Dean’s shoulder at the first stoplight and say,

“You’re gonna be okay, man. Hang in there.”

But none of that means anything. Dean won’t let Sam be so easily redeemed.



>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

tbc....


Edited at 2009-04-21 01:00 am (UTC)
i_speak_tongue: amuleti_speak_tongue on April 21st, 2009 02:23 am (UTC)
learning to feel nothing (part 3)
(eep. I lied. one more part after this one....)




There’s this tub of leftover General Tao chicken that has Dean’s name on it. Like literally. It’s his from yesterday, and he knows how much Goliath eats (Dad says it’s cause he’s still growing, but come on, he’s six-two—how much taller can you get?), so he’s become a little territorial when it comes to food.

The thing is, Tupperware sucks. His chicken is imprisoned in this fucking container and he’s so goddamn hungry maybe he’ll just eat that too. And every time he tries to open the thing he gets delirious from the lightning-bolts of pain that jag through his hands and up his arms.

Frustration isn’t strong enough a word.

“Fuck,” Dean breathes through tightly clenched teeth, rearranging the crook of his elbow around the container.

Finding the rim with his left middle and ring fingers, he hopes that maybe in some foreign country somewhere the twelfth time is the charm.

He feels the top pop off and for a split second he’s more proud of himself than he’d ever be willing to admit. But it doesn’t last. The tub flips out from under his arm and the food scatters in sticky reddish-orange clumps on the (definitely-not-clean-enough-to-eat-off) kitchen floor.

Dean stares down at it for a moment in utter disbelief.

He could cry. He really could.

“Son of a Bitch!” he yells, and looses it on one of the kitchen chairs, kicking it violently across the room. “Fuck!”

He slouches back against the counter and slides slowly to the floor, cradling his casts in his lap.

He whispers it this time: “Fuck.”

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>



Smoking doesn’t help. This is too big to be fixed with a little intake of secret nicotine. Dean takes one last nervous drag and flicks the filter out into the street where it mingles with fast food wrappers and spilled motor oil and used condoms. Yeah, they’re in a great neighborhood.

He paces on the front stoop of the little apartment building, tries to figure out what his next move should be. He’s never been so mad at anyone in his entire fucking life and he realizes he really needs to not be home when Sam gets back from school.

He settles on working on the construction job the building’s owner’s hired him to help out with for the summer. Renovating the apartment across the hall.

He sets in on sanding down the drywall. And he tries so goddamn hard to concentrate on the job, but all he can think about are those pamphlets from Yale and Columbia and Stanford with pictures of fucking bratty prep school kids playing rugby and rowing and sitting in big Gothic libraries. And it fucking kills him. It rips at his arteries and eats at his gut and before he even knows what the hell is happening the sandpaper is on the floor and his fist is through the wall.

Each punch after that is like a signature at the end of a binding contract. A promise to himself and to the world that he won’t let this hurt him. That he won’t let his brother break his heart.


>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Re: learning to feel nothing (part 3) - roque_clasique on April 21st, 2009 03:08 am (UTC) (Expand)
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i_speak_tongue: breakingthroughi_speak_tongue on April 21st, 2009 03:47 am (UTC)
learning to feel nothing (part 4a)
It never really went away. After all that, Dean can still feel it. So when Sam wanders into the kitchen in his boxers, all bleary eyed and half asleep, he’s got no idea what he’s in for.

“What’s going on, man?” he asks, his bare feet padding across the linoleum floor, dodging spilled Chinese food. Dean just presses his forehead harder against his flannel-covered knees.

“Were you ever gonna tell me, Sam?” he rasps without looking up.

“Tell you what?” Sam asks, and Dean hears the chair’s legs hit the floor.

“College. I found your college shit. The SAT scores. The letters of recommendation. The Ivy League propaganda. All of it,” Dean says, trying really damn hard not to cry or yell or rip the doors off the cupboards he’s leaning up against.

“Jesus,” Sam gasps, dropping to the floor to sit cross-legged right in front of him. Dean lifts his head and meets his brother’s eyes, tries to see past all that built up anger and hurt to something he can connect with. Something that will make this all make sense.

“Is it that fucking bad here with us? Are you that miserable?” he asks.

Sam leans in closer, peers down at the way Dean’s got his arms cradled into his stomach like a couple of helpless kittens. “Dean… Shit. Did you…. I mean… your hands… oh, God.”

“Don’t let it get to your head, Sammy.” Like Dean just accidentally told him that he’s hot or something.

“Dean, I’m sorry. I didn’t want you to find out like this.”

“Whatever, man.”

“No. Not whatever. Look, I just… I just wanted to know if I could. I just wanted to see. You know? It doesn’t mean anything. I mean I haven’t really thought that hard about it.”

It’s a lie, and Dean knows it.

“Yeah. Okay, Sam,” he sighs, struggling to his feet. Sam gets up too, grabs an elbow to help steady him, and Dean tries to tell himself he doesn’t really need it.

“You won’t tell Dad?” Sam asks, like he’s freakin’ five years old again and just spilled chocolate milk all over the back seat of the Impala.

“That’s your job,” Dean says, still trying to find his equilibrium, still trying to not pass out from the excruciating pain.

“I probably won’t even have to. I mean… This is just…” Sam’s saying, until Dean is practically collapsing into his arms, and Sam has to wrangle him into the nearest chair.

“Whoa! Hey…. Dean,” Sam’s careful with his arms, lifts them gently and pulls Dean’s chair in close so that he doesn’t have to reach to lean most of his upper body on the table. “Okay. I guess you need some of that codeine, huh?”

Dean can barely tell up from down but he thinks he nods.

“Just hang on a sec, okay?”

Sam comes back many seconds later, slides a pillow under his arms, slips a couple pills into his mouth and holds up a glass of water to his lips for him to drink from.

“I think you were supposed to take these like six hours ago,” he says, examining the little orange bottle, sitting in a chair right next to him now. “Jesus, Dean…”






(grrrrr.... like 100 characters over. Figures)



i_speak_tongue: pensive!deani_speak_tongue on April 21st, 2009 03:51 am (UTC)
learning to feel nothing (part 4b)

Sam’s hand slides up his back, big and warm and strong. Rubs up and down slowly, and Dean wishes more than anything that it didn’t make him feel better. But it does.

“’M fuckin’ useless,” he mutters, his cheek pressed against his outstretched bicep.

“Looks like you got your PJ’s on okay,” Sam offers.

“Can’t do the buttons,” Dean says, so tired he can’t help but whine a little.

“’S okay,” Sam says, and snakes his hands under Dean’s arms, on a mission to join buttons and holes. “You cold?”

“Kinda,” Dean admits. The nights have been chilly lately, and the fans in the apartment are still on full blast. He can feel the goose bumps on his skin just thinking about it.

“We’ll get you back in bed as soon as we get some food in you,” Sam says, fumbling with Dean’s plaid flannel shirt, their faces so close Dean can feel Sam’s breath on his neck.

Dean ponders his leftovers like a long lost love. “I dropped my chicken,” he says, starting to feel a little weird. How many pills did he swallow anyway?

“I know, man. I saw. You can have mine, okay?”

Sam’s a good brother. He’s so good.

“Yeah?”

“Yeah, man. It’s all yours,” Sam says, buttoning the last button. He pats Dean on the knee and cocks his head to look him straight in the eyes. “Anything you need, Dean. Anything. I’m your man.”

And Dean thinks maybe he can let himself need Sam. Just this once. Just because Dad is on a long hunt, and he broke both his hands and can’t hold pizza or open car doors. Just this one time. And if Sam ever leaves, then he’ll just make sure he doesn’t ever need him ever again.





fin



(Sooooo....this was way angstier then I thought it would be. Please don't hate me!)
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